THEY SAY YOU SHOULD NOT LIVE IN THE PAST,GET OVER IT MOVE ON.THIS HAPPENED YEARS AGO,STOP DWELLNG IN THE PAST.HOW CAN YOU GET OVER YOUR PAST WHEN IT MADE YOU WHO YOU ARE.YOU ARE A PRODUCT OF YOUR ENVIROMENT,GOOD OR BAD YOU ARE A PRODUCT OF YOUR ENVIROMENT.
THEY SAY WHAT DOES NOT KILL YOU ONLY MAKES YOU STRONGER,BULLSHIT THEN WHY DO I FEEL SO WEAK?WHY DO I FEEL LIKE I LOST THE FIGHT?I DO NOT KNOW WHAT REAL LOVE FEELS LIKE,IF YOU HAVE NEVER BEEN GIVEN IT.THEY SAY AS A CHILD OF ABUSE THEY SAY YOU SHOULD BE PROUD .WHAT IS THERE TO BE PROUD OF? A MOTHER WHO NEVER SHOWED YOU AN OUNCE OF LOVE.A MOTHER WHO MADE YOU FEEL LESS THEN ANY HUMAN SHOULD FEEL,TO MAKE IT WORSE YOU SAY IT TO A CHILD.HOW DO YOU SHOW COMPASSION TO SOMEONE WHO DOES NOT DESERVE IT?SHE IS THE MOTHER SHE WAS SUPPOSED TO SHOW ME LOVE,TEACH ME TO BE CONFIDENT,STRONG.HOW TO BE A MOTHER TO LOVE AND PROTECT HER CHILD,LOVE HER CHILD UNCONDITIONAL.I NEVER GOT A DROP OF THAT,EVER NOW THI HAVEE TABLE ARE TURNED AND I HAVE TO TAK E CARE OF HER NOW.BE THE LOVING DAUGHTER SHE NEVER TAUGHT ME TO BE.THE EVIL THAT IS HER MAKES ME WANT TO LET HER ROTT.WHY SHOW LOVE TO SOMEONE WHO NEVER LOVED YOU? I ANT TO SPIT IN HER FACE AND WALK AWAY,BUT MY HEART WILL NOT LET ME.WOW AIN'T THAT A BITCH.
I AM A MOTHER OF TWO GOD BLESSED ME WITH TWO PRICELESS CHILDREN,AND FUCK THEY DRIVE ME NUTS.I AM SURE YOU MOTHERS KNOW WHAT I MEAN.HATS OF WITH THOSE OF YOU WITH MORE THEN TWO SHIT I DO NOT ENVY YOU HAHA.MY POINT IT I LOVE MY CHILDREN ABOVE ALL ELSE,AND I WOULD KILL MYSELF BEFORE EVER LKETTING THEM GO THOUGH A DROP OF WHAT I HAVE BEEN THOUGH.THEY SAY WHEN A PARENT ABUSES THEIR CHILD THAT THEY CHILD WILL ONE DAY ALSO ABUSE THIER CHILD.AS A CHILD WHO GREW UP IN EXTREME ABUSE. BULL FUCKIN SHIT,DO NOT BELEIVE THE HYPE.IT IS A CHOICE,YOU DO NOT WAKE UP AND JUST TORTURE YOUR CHILD.I REMEMBER BEING A CHILD AFTER A AWEFUL BEATING AND SAYING TO MYSELF WHEN I HAVE KIDS I WILL NEVER EVER TREATT THEM THE WAY MY MOM TREATED ME.MENTALYY ILL OR NOT THERE IS NO EXSCUSE,I HATE ALL THOSE IN MY FAMILY WHO KNEW ABOUT IT AND DID NOTHING.UP TILL THIS DAY SHE IS MENALLY ILL. I DID NOT KNOW HOW TO BE A MOTHER AS A CHILD BUT I KNEW WHAT MY MOM WAS DOING WAS NOT MOTHERING THATS FOR DAMN SURE.
I HAVE FORGIVEN HER,BUTI WILL NEVER EVER FORGET.I HAVE SCARES THAT REMIND ME DAILY OF THE PAIN I GREW UP IN.THANKS GOD FOR THE HOME AND FAMILY I HAVE NOW,THE FRIENDS WHO ARE MY FAMILY.I WOULD NOT BE ABLE TO GET THOUGH THE STORMS THAT HAUNT ME.MY FRIENDS THAT HAVE MORE FAITH IN ME THEN I DO IN MYSELF.I AM SO BLESSED,THEY I CANNOT SAY FIXED ME I AM DAMAGED GOODS,BUT I STILL HAVE MY SELFWORTH.I CAN NOW SAY I AM WORTH SOMETHING WHENI WAS NOTHING TO MY MOTHER.I HAVE THE MOST BEAUTIFUL CHILDREN A WOMAN CAN BE BLESSED WITH,THEY ARE A REMINDER THAT I AM WORTH SOMETHING HOW CAN I NOT BE.I LEARNED TO LOVE UNCONDITIONALLY WITHOUT BOARDERS,RESPECT PEOPLE NO MATTER THE RACE OR CREED.OPEN MY HEART AND STILL LOVE TO ALL OF THOSE WHO HAVE BEEN THERE FOR ME EVRYDAY.I GET EMOTIONALLY WEAK AT TIMES LIVING WITH MY MOTHER AGAIN AFTER MOVING AWAY SINCE THE AGE OF 16.SHE STILL VERBALLY ABUSES ME,BUT I HAVE SOMETHING SHE WILL NEVER EVER HAVE AND THAT IS TO BE HAPPY.TO HAVE FRIENDS TO CALL WHEN I NEED TO LAUGH OR CRY.CHILDREN WHO DO LOVE ME AND I LOVE WITH EVERY BEAT MY HEART TAKES.I AM A MOTHER SHE TRIED TO DISTROY ME AND I MADE IT,I GET WEAK AT TIMES SHE GETS THE BEST OF ME.I JUST KNOW SHE IS ENVYOUS OF WHAT I HAVE,DISPITE ALL SHE DID TO BRAKE ME I AM STILL SMILING AND I TRY TO TELL MYSELF THAT WHEN SHE TRIES TO GET THE BEST OF ME.I HAVE A RELATIONSHIP WITH MY CHILDREN UNLIKE HER AND I WHO HAVE NOTHING.SHE IS NOT MY MOTHER SHE WAS MY INCUBAITOR,THATS IT THE WOMAN I AM TODAY HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH HER .I THANK MAUREEN A WRIGHT FOR SAVING ME IN THE DARKEST TIME OF MY LIFE.GIVING ME A HOME,SHOWING ME LOVE,TEACHING ME TO BE THE MOTHER I AM TODAY.I HAVE A FAMILY A GREAT EXTENDED FAMILY WOW I WAS ALONE AS A CHILD ,BUT I AM NOT LONGER ALONE NOW.I AM RICH IN THE WAYS THAT REALLY COUNT,I HAVE SOMETHING MONEY CANNOT BUY A REAL FAMILY,A BROTHER AND SISTER A NEPHEW.WOW WHO WOULD OF THOUGHT AN ONLY CHILD COULD END UP WITH SUCH A BIG FAMILY?I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD BE SO BLESSED WHAT I HAVE IS PRICELESS,MY MOM TOOK ALLOT AWAY FROM ME BUT AT THE END OF THE STORM.WELL...THE STORM IS NEVER REALLY OVER I HAVE SOMETHING SHE NEVER NOR EVER HAVE LOVE.I WANT TO THANKS ALL OF MY FRIENDS WHO HAVE LISTEN TO THIS SAME SAD SONG FOR YEARS ,YET THEY STILL LISTEN TO ME LAUGH ,CRY,YELL,VENT,OR SAY NOTHING YOU RE PRICELESS TO ME AND NEVER WOULD MAKE IT WITH OUT YOU.YET UP TILL THIS DAY SOME OF YOU FOR OVER 20PLUS YEARS HAVE PUT UP WITH ME AND I THANKS-YOU AND LOVE YOU.